I actually was going to blog about something entirely different today, but as I was going through my makeup collection gathering products I started to think all the makeup brands that I used to love. I have ranted and blogged about this stuff in the past, but this post is a bit different.
I am speaking of once cruelty free companies that have sold themselves out to companies that test on animals. Over the last few years I lost them one by one. They claim that even though they are owned by companies that test they will not. It's okay if you still consider them cruelty free. I don't want to judge, but I feel it shows poor morals. How can you care about animals if you're partnering with companies that don't?
For a long time I was really angry at these companies. I felt betrayed. I invested hundreds of dollars in them. And I honestly really liked a lot of the products. I really don't understand animal testing in this day and age anyway. So many companies don't do it. I kinda feel that the ones that do are just sick bastards who want to hurt animals.
A few months ago my makeup got contaminated and I had to throw out more than half of my collection. It really changed the way I felt about makeup. I used to be obsessed with it, always hunting down the next palette of lipstick to try. Now I have some things I like, I know what works for me, and I know what I like.
Here's the hard part, what the hell do I do about the makeup I own from those companies I mentioned. I don't want to use it on my channel or blog about it because I don't want to give them more attention. I don't want to throw it out because I spent a lot of money on it, and I feel guilty when I use it. I feel more guilty because I love it. It just sits there in my collection. It's kind of like having a jerky boyfriend who is really good in bed. You get pleasure but feel crappy afterwards. And then imagine him just sitting in your house staring at you!
I love making tutorials and review videos. I enjoy beauty blogging but at times like this I feel like it would be so easy to walk away from it all. I haven't made a beauty video in months because my space is in transition. I am hoping for a second wind.
Anyway this was a weird post. I would appreciate any feedback you could offer. If you read this all the way through I love ya :)